Not only did Higher Ground give me the chance to get my body back into some sort of working order, it also gave me the ability to learn to mix and communicate with others, to have a daily routine and daily exercise. It made me take a good honest look at myself, find out my character defects and work on these. It made me become honest not only with myself but also others.
Going through Higher Ground was not easy, but then it was not supposed to be. I found the mental challenge extremely difficult and also very tiring. After all, I had been incapable of using my brain for some time hence my low level of common sense and intelligence. Ever so slowly my mind cleared and I was able to think and function as a decent human being.
I was once again feeding my body with the nutrients required on a regular basis. I was able to look at myself in the mirror and think, “well you’re not so bad”. I learned to be grateful for the small things in life and express my thanks. It was the education groups I got most out of, finally having someone explaining what alcoholism was and why I was feeling as I was, explained in a manner I could understand.
This led me to admit and accept that my life had become unmanageable, and to know that I can never pick up another drink of alcohol again. This acceptance is the basis of my recovery.